Don't you hate surprise meetings with your boss about all of the things you are doing wrong??!!
Thank the Gods its friday before a 3 day weekend!

Bosses Suck even more. I don't want to get dooced so I'm not going into it but let me say, I'm about 5 minutes away from walking away from my job and telling them to go fuck themselves.

That is all. Oy.

This week and next week I don't think I'll be able to blog much as I'm going to be really busy at work. But I am alive and if anything interesting happens I'll let you all know.

Remember recent events about me asking a certain someone about whether he was available? Well. I'm working on coordinating an event at work where I will have to send out electronic invitations. So one of the people who are coming to speak said in an email to me to contact a certain coworker of hers, who just happened to be CC'd on the email, who also happened to be said guy I asked out. I could only put my head down on my desk and groan. Boy. I think I'll wait til monday at the earliest to talk to him about this project. DOH!

Is anyone actually still reading my blog?? Hello? This on????

It's not really funny for my poor coworker as he has a slipped or herniated disk in his back. But what is funny, is walking past his office to see him lieing on his back on the floor with his laptop in the air. Poor thing.

"I don't know, he doesn't seem senile"

Well, now I have proof I'm a looser. Even my bosses think so. I had a meeting with my supervisor. I thought it was only going to be about some new job responsibilities. But it also was let's tell her what she needs improvement session on. While the outcome came out well, I still feel like a complete ass and you can bet Mother Sugar is getting a call from me this evening. You may or may not remember that a co-worker got promoted ahead of me. I found out its not because of the math skills or college degree but because i'm not nice enough. Apparantly I get short with people. I feel like such a moron now. I'm getting this one responsibility on a trial basis and if I'm not nice enough they will take it away from me. Now, for part of this, the staff member who got promoted ahead of me is going to supervise me in these new responsibility because he had been doing them. I feel like a complete ass.

We've interviewed three people at work today for this temporary full time position. I think my brain is officially fried.

just depresses me. I hate it that I don't have a college degree- people assume I'm stupid and can't learn anything because I don't have a piece of damned paper. I did go to college, I just didn't graduate. This other program assistant now has a better title than me and it makes me want to cry. It's just a job title but as they were announcing it, one of my boses was looking at me to see how I reacted. I can't find any jobs to apply to. I've found a total of three (including one in the organization where I am now) jobs to apply for since Christmas. I need a new job!!!

The program assistant who got hired after me got a better job title than me when everyone got the redone titles. I came out of the meeting just about in tears and so I called Kat. Kat was less then sympathetic and now I feel even more stupid and I just want to go home and cry. I REALLY need a new job. Never mind the fact I had to beg for some minor data entry work

On my mental health front, the doctors are decreasing the Lamictal I"m on because it's making me confused. I am not happy.

Have I mentioned its 24 hours until I get my tattoo??????

That my coworkers gave me food for the holidays. HELLO?? I have an Eating disorder!!!! OY

The more and more I think about it, I think its time for me to leave my current employer. I'm tired of the other program assistant getting all of the work that requires a brain and me only getting brainless crap to do. I'm not challenged, I'm bored and my brain is turning into mush (sorta like W). I HATE going through the process of looking for another job. I just hope they don't call my bosses until they are sure they want to hire me because I really don't want them to know I'm looking. I'm tired of being taken for granted. It makes me really sad because I really do like my bosses.

Today in a staff meeting I flung up my arms and said hello, I'm here I can help. But no one seemed to care. PPPHHHHTTT. The job hunt begins

I've sort of started looking for a new job. I'm getting bored where I am. There isn't anywhere to get promoted to and they already give anything new and or complicatied to the other program assistant. It's kind of depressing me because I like my bosses. But I'm not challenged anymore. I could do this job in my sleep now.

Yesterday at work my department had a staff meeting. We have been interviewing people for an open position and so were discussing some of the candidates. One of them has a very German sounding last name. One of my coworkers says I'm surprised she didn't change the pronounciation of her last name. I almost said excuse me? Why would someone want to or should according to your standards change their last name. GROWL. I really wanted to remind them that my mom is German and I found that comment rude and unnecessary. I wasn't amused either when my coworkers were laughing. I just sat frozen in place thinking I can't believe he just said that.

I ended up taking Friday off of work because I was so exhausted from my first two weeks of full time work. Plus it was icy out and I had no desire to drive in the ice and Kat wasn't home to drive me to metrol

At work, we have something called panels where we bring people in to review and judge applications. We have this thing catered. The idiots brought the food at 10:30 so I had to go put it all in random refrigerators and hope no one decides to eat it. Then I get to run around again at 11:50 and bring the food back to the panels. Plus they forgot the fruit and cookie tray. They got an angry call from me telling them not to bring the food at 10:30 as we really don't have the refrigerator room to keep it. They did come back and deliver the fruit and cookie tray but JEEZ! OY

Now that I'm eating again I get free lunch at work during panels! 3 days this week and 3 days next week!! Who HOOO!

Not that I've been blogging much (I'm behind at work) but they are letting us leave the office at 3pm today. Current time is 2:52pm

Did I mention they also gave us Friday off

Also on Friday, Kat, myself, my sister and her fiancee are all going to see the New Harry Potter movie!!

Guess who's back at work? I'm only going to work Monday and Tuesday but next week I'll be here four days.

Seriously can't think of a title for this post. My boss calls me into her office. The first words out of my mouth are What Have I done Now? She was laughing at me because she knows how paranoid I am about being called into her office. Fortunately, she just wanted to make sure I was ok and was taking care of myself. She told me I wouldn't be loosing my job if I decided to go. Phew. Everyone seems to be gently pushing me that way so maybe I should go, I don't know.

Chris, over at Rude Cactus wants us to tell Boss stories.

This one isn't funny, it was scarey. I used to work at a now defunct telecommunications firm. I still talk to one of the former executive vice presidents occasionally. I was hanging around outside of his office chatting with his executive assistant. We would all goof around all the time. Anyway suddenly we here this large thud and glass breaking. Me and the assistant rush into his office and there he is passed out on the floor. We had to call the ambulance. I think they just called it a panic attack or something but he was ok. But it was definitely disconcerting because he's a really nice guy.

When I worked at this small bank (where I was sexually harrased but that's another story) I had this horrible boss Alison. She used to yell at me for putting stamps on envelopes that weren't exactly lined up with the top of the envelope. That place was a living nightmare. I'm so glad I'm not there anymore.

Just checking in, I doubt I'll be able to blog much today as I'm drowning in work. Go figure :-)

Have I mentioned I'm going to have a nervous breakdown if Mother Sugar doesn't come back ASAFP???

I really think I'm going to flip out soon. Fortunately she is supposed to be calling within the next few days. Please let her call tonight I think I might just explode soon.

Don't you hate it when you know there is something going on work but you can't pin down anyone to ask why everyone is in an uproar?

They're letting us leave the office at 3pm! Guess what I'm going to do when I get home? Laundry. Exciting huh?

Like I really needed another mother. My boss at work is trying to get rid of some gift certificates for a restaraunt that's near where Kat and I live. She asked me if I would want them but I told her that because I'm still not eating (she knows a little bit about my eating disorder) it would go wasted on me. She then says in her best stern voice "You're working on that right" Even though we were on the phone I was blushing and said yes, thats why I took tuesday off to go to John's Hopkins. I don't know why I was embarrased but I was

I've come to the conclusion that I really need to go to the hospital. Mother issues aside there really isn't anything to stop me from going. The problem is, Kat and I are leaving for vacation in the middle of June and we can't cancel because we'll loose at least $250 of an enormous deposit. Now I can go when I come back which is the most likely option at this point anyway as the hospital I would go to has a 3 1/2 week waiting list. But, for vacation I'm going to be using 2 weeks of my vacation leave. I have a little over a week of sick leave that I can use and I'll have almost another week of vacation left. But I'm going to feel terrible if I come back from my vacation and 2 or 3 weeks later I"m off to the hospital and I leave my office without an assistant (not completely accurate as there is another one but he's got his own work). I'm so confused and I don't know what to do.

Now my boss is really, really nice. I can go to her and explain the situation and she'll probably understand but it gets a little complicated now. Most likely I would be inpatient for around aweek maybe a little less. Then I would go to this outpatient intesive therapy thing for several weeks gradually going less and less and going back to work. If I do this, I'm obviously going to run out of sick and vacation leave. ('I'm not done yet!)

When I got to my building this morning, there was water pouring down the front of the building. I asked one of my co workers what was going on he told me that a fire alarm had gone off and set off a sprinkler or something to that effect. Offices down the hall from me had water coming in from the ceiling. I kept hoping they'd send us home but so far, no such luck. Damn. At least it's never boring around here.

**Think Hyacinth Bouquet from Keeping Up Appearances (BBC America)

My boss bought me a gift certificate to a movie theaters. The rest of the department is also buying the other program assistant and me pizza for lunch. I'm going to have a hard time eating it but I suppose I will

Don't you love mondays that start off with one's boss in a pissy mood.

Fun, fun fun.

YUCK! It's about 110 degrees in my office building. Turn off the heat you idiots it's almost 80 degrees outside!!

The only good thing that came from yesterday's phone call with Mother Sugar was her suggestion that I take an extra day off from work this week. I had briefly thought about the idea earlier in the day but had promptly forgotten it. So today I asked my boss if I could have Friday off and now I do!! PHEW! Talking about really REALLY needing a mental health day. And yes, I'm still pissed with Mother Sugar.

I almost had a nervous breakdown on the way to work this morning over something really stupid. It was raining and I was carrying my book as well as my umbrella as I walked from my car to the metro station. It's not a terribly long walk but its long enough to get me. Because it was really windy my umbrella kept getting turned inside out. I couldn't really put my book down because it would have gotten soaking wet. Of course if I had any sense at all, I would have put my book in my backpack until I got to metro. In any case, it was bloody cold and windy, I didn't have my gloves on, my scarf was tangled around my inverted umbrella and I was holding my book with nowhere to put it. I was cussing up a storm. I get to metro and arrive downtown. It's not until I'm walking to my office that I realize my umbrella was broken. I'm almost in tears.

I'm not done yet....