Lots of things have changed and so I am redoing my 100+ things
1. I was in a relationship with a woman for more than 8 years.
2. She was the only woman I've ever been with
3. When I lived with her I had pet rats
4. I suffer from severe depression
5. I've lost count how many times I've tried to kill myself
6. I'm also a cutter
7. I was in a psychiatric institute when I was 15 for a month
8. In 2005 I was hospitalized on a mental ward
9. Once for my eating disorder and the other for depression
10. I used to have an eating disorder
In Progress. The only rule (so far) is that you can only have one album by an artist. This is subject to change of course.
1. Sarah Mclachlan's Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
2. James Blunt's Back to Bedlam
3. Tori Amos's Scarlett's Walk
But I am not done with the story telling, well not really. On my way out of Comp USA I ran into Friend X. Rermember how I was going to write him a long letter and such? But my eating disorder took over my life and I went to the hospital and I never got around to it. I almost didn't recognise him because he had cut his hair shor and trimmed his beard. But it was very, very, very nice to see him and you can bet that I will be calling him tonight.
Mark Twain Quotes Archived Here
Albert Einstein Quotes
Other quotes archived here
Eleanor Roosevelt Quotes
Friendship with oneself is all important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world
Many people will walk in and out of your life but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams
Mark Twain Quotes Archived Here
Eleanor Roosevelt quotes
Other quotes archived here
Albert Einstein Quotes
Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new
Imagination is more important than knowledge
Only two things are infinite- the universe and human stupidity, and I'm not so sure about the universe.
The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious
Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value
Archived 07/07/06
JEM
Finally Woken
New, Amazon $8.97
T.A.T.U
Dangerous and Moving
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Archived 4/11/06
Cyndi Lauper
The Body Acoustic
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Ani DiFranco
Knuckle Down
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Archived 1/13/06
Various
The Songs of Dolly Parton
Just Because I'm a Woman
Sinead O'Connor
Collaborations
Archived 7/18/05
The Perishers
Let There Be Morning
QOTM Archive
Einstein Quotes
Eleanor Roosevelt quotes
Christianity will doubtless still survive the earth ten centuries hence- stuffed and in a museum
Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear- not absence of fear
Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first
Each race determines for itself what indecencies are. Nature knows no indecencies, man invents them.
Experience is an authors most valuable asset; Experience is the thing that put the muscle and breath and worm blood into the book he writes
Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody
If books are not good company, Where will I find it?
If Christ were here now, there is one thing he would not be - A Christian
If we would learn what the human race is at bottom, we need only observe it in election times
I am only human, although I regret it
I have never taken any exercise except sleeping and resting
read more ?Obdurate Stubbornly presistent in wrongdoing (Archived 4/26/05)
Obsequious-attempting to win favor from influential people by flattery (archived 2/4/05)
Obstreperous- boisterously and noisily agressive (archived 4/21/05)
Obviate-1. prevent the occurence of, prevent from happening 2. do away with
(archived 1/31/05)
Officious-Intrusive in a meddling or offensive manner(archived 6/16/05)
Panegyric- a formal expression of praise (archived 4/12/05)
Pariah-A person who is rejected from society or home (archived 6/15/05)
Penchant-a strong liking (archived 2/28/05)
Perfidious-Tending to betray (archived 5/20/05)
Pernicious- Exceedingly harmful (archived 4/20/05)
Precipitate- 1. Separate as a fine suspension of solid particles 2. bring about abruptly (archived 1/24/05)
Precipitous-done with very great haste and without due deliberation (archived1/28/05)
Prevaricate- be deliberately ambiguous or unclear in order to mislead or withhold information (archived 3/22/05)
Prolix- tediously prolonged or tending to speak or write at great length (archived 3/25/05)
Pusillanimous- Lacking in courage and manly strength and resolution; contemptibly fearful (archived 4/18/05)
QOTM Archives
Mark Twain Quotes Archived Here
Albert Einstein Quotes Archived Here
Eleanor Roosevelt quotes
(Quote of the Moment)
A censor is a man who knows more than he thinks you ought to--Granville Hicks
A conclusion is the place where you got tired of thinking--Arthur Block
A Diplomat is a person who can tell you to go to hell in such a way that you actually look forward to
the trip -- Caskie Stinnet
A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway--Fr. Jerome Cummings
A genuine leader is not a searcher for consensus but a molder of consensus-- Martin Luther King Jr.
A good head and a good heart are always a formidable combination-- Nelson Mandela
All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing--Edmund Burke
Any reviewer who expresses rage and loathing for a novel is preposterous. He or she is like a person who has put on full armor and attacked a hot fudge sunday--Kurt Vonnegut
A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your successes--Doug Larson
At times one remains faithful to a cause only because its opponents do not cease to be insipid --Fredrich Nietzsche
Better to fail at doing the right thing than to succeed at doing the wrong thing --Guy Kawasaki
Books, like friends, should be few and well chosen--Samuel Paterson
Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak; Courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen.
-- Winston Churchill
Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep--Scott Adams
Deeds, not stones, are the true monuments of the great -- John L. Motley
Defeat never comes to any man until he admits it--Josephus Daniels
Diligence is the mother of good luck--Banjamin Franklin
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail--Ralph Waldo Emerson
Do what you can, with what you have, where you are--Theodore Roosevelt
Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without loosing your temper or your self confidence--Robert Frost
Everything comes to him who hustles while he waits--Thomas Edison
First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win --Mahatma Gandhi
He that always gives way to others will end in having no principles of his own-- Aesop
He that is good at making excuses is seldom good at anything else-- Benjamin Franklin
I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody--Bill Cosby
If a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live--Martin Luther King Jr.
If God had really intended men to fly, he'd make it easier to get to the airport--George Winters
If I have seen farther than others, it is because I was standing on the soulders of giants
-- Isaac Newton
If opportunity doesn't knock, build a door- Milton Berle
If you cannot convince them, confuse them - Harry S. Truman
I'm a great believer in luck and I find the harder I work, the more I have of it --Thomas Jefferson
In America, sex is an obsession; in other parts of the word, it's a fact. -- Marlene Dietrich
In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing. The worst thing you can do is nothing--Theodore Roosevelt
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life- it goes on; --Robert Frost
It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop--Confucius
It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it --Aristotle
It may be that our role on this planet is not to worship God- but to create him--Arthur C Clarke
Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echos are truly endless--Mother Theresa
WOTW A-M Archives
Word of the Whatever
(whenever I feel like updating it)
Abysmal-so deep as to be unmeasurable (archived 2/15/05)
Accretion- An increase by natural growth or addition (archived 3/7/05)
Ameliorate- to make better (archived 3/10/05)
Ardor-1. a feeling of strong eagerness 2. intense feeling of love (archived 1/27/05)
Asperity-Something hard to endure (archived 6/10/05)
Assay-An appraisal of the state of affairs (archived 5/26/05)
Assiduous-marked by care and persistent effort (archived 4/5/05)
Attenuate- 1. weaken the sonsistency of 2. become weaker in strenght, value or magnitude (Archived 1/21/05)
Belie- be in contradiction with (archived 1/14/05)
Cabal-a clique (often secret) that seeks power usually through intrigue (archived 2/22/05)
Capitous- tending to find and call attention to faults (archived 3/11/05)
Consternation-Fear resulting from the awareness of danger (archived 3/1/05)
Contentious- having ot showing a ready disposition to fight (archived 4/14/05)
Contumacious-Willfully Obstinante. Stubbornly disobedient (archived 5/16/05)
Diaphanous-So thin as to transmit light (archived 4/29/05)
Disabuse- free somebody from an erroneous belief (archived 3/8/05)
Dross-Worthless material that should be removed (archived 5/2/05)
I saw this on Joelle's blog and thought it was such a fantastic idea that I decided to do one as well.
Mother Sugar- My therapist. I got really tired of typing my therapist this my therapist that. I needed a nickname. How did I get it you ask? Well, I was reading The Golden Notebook for my english class. In it, the protagonist refers to her therapist as Mother Sugar and I thought that was a good nickname.
Where did Pixie With a Crash Helmet come from? When Kat and I met through a mutual friend (whom we don't really talk to now) we were playing the roll playing game Changeling. And so Kat joined the group. My character was a fairy and I had failed a roll for landing and so I my character was going to crash and so Kat's character came running trying to catch me. I don't remember what exactly happend but Kat Kat's character told mine that I needed a crash helmet. And so Pixie With A Crash Helmet was born. When I was trying to come up with a name for my blog, Kat reminded me of this and so I chose it because I'm also a clutz.
Rats Yes I have pet rats. I highly recommend them for anyone who wants them. They're 100 times smarter than gerbils and are extremely affectionate. My rats even have their own blog: Rodentia Riots
Larry!!!Who is Larry and why does he have his own category? Larry is a member of our circle and when he goes on a rant he kinda looses his mind. He tends to send us hysterical emails when he's taken drugs or is pissed off at the world. I'm going through all of our old emails to make sure they are all documented because he is just too funny.
General Joy I've been trying to come up with a nickname for my therapist in the eating disorder group. As I came up with one for my individual therapist (Mother Sugar) it's only appropriate and much easier than Eating Disorder therapist. So I was listening to Tori Amos new cd (which totally rocks by the way) and I noticed that one song is called General Joy. I almost burst out laughing when it occured to me this morning that it would make a great nick name for my eating disorder therapist, especially because her constant happiness annoys the shit out of me. So General Joy now refers to the therapist in my eating disorder group.
Red My latest eating disorder group therapist. Pretty young- late thirties, early fourties Reddish Brown hair and very sweet.
I'd love your input as to what else I should put here because I don't know what else would be helpful. PLEASE leave comments with what would help to understand my little blog world. Thanks!
You can igonore this, this is just a list of the bands/musicians that I listen to.
i love lists like this. good for you for revamping. i hope you're feeling some sort of balance between positive and negative things you have to change. you really are such a strong person!